February 2010 Journal Entry:
“I was unsure about telling the full story behind this record. It was a very heavy process in many ways, inspired by an emotional awakening that began following an early divorce at 22 and a series of shifts and transformations that occurred thereafter. The songs seemed to write themselves. But without realizing it, the actual making of this album became a two year project filled with endless opportunities to grow through grief, questioning, and emotional exploration.
In all honesty, I think I had become unconsciously dependent on the success of this album. I was trying to replace a gaping hole in my heart, and even music wasn't going to do that job. I'm sure I was hell to work with for a while. I battled a constant struggle for satisfaction I could never get, and my ears would hear different things depending on the day. With the album in hand - finally ready to be heard - I can truly see how it has been the most incredible gift to my healing... and to my growth. I can listen to it now and hear its beauty.