ALL LYRICS WRITTEN BY SHEENA GROBB:
(displayed alphabetically by song title)
 
Apologies For Profit

one more time for old time sake you’ll deliver excuses that i’ll take
stacking all available decks in your favour how clever
with padded walls and safety nets you emerge to purge eager attempts
self absorbed and swollen stiff as a result of your leakage

like analogies that don’t fit
like apologies for profit
your fallacies are not legit
like i’ve hoped and i’ll admit

no more corners left to cut unless you count the one your debt is coming around
you don’t fall short with integrity cause that would mean you tried
to come close somehow
and i asked once with unavoidable pretenses what defenses have you
considering how none will do

like analogies that don’t fit
like apologies for profit
your fallacies are not legit
like i’ve hoped and i’ll admit

now here’s the hook
the hook you’ve been off of
the hook soon to snag you
there’s no one here
convinced by your antics
the ones that define you
the ones that define you
and shouldn’t but they do
the ones that define you
and shouldn’t but they do

like analogies that don’t fit
like apologies for profit
your fallacies are not legit
like i’ve hoped and i’ll admit

 
Back Row

Silent disguise of affection
Muffled deep in your sleeve a nervous cough
I hear the lines - you’ve rehearsed ‘em
The matter being you’re unsure if I’ll pay off

But I’m not waiting around
I break real well when handled rough, I know it
I think it’s best you keep your tough love where I can see it
Take that or leave it

I’m having problems with your line up
The sign said “open mic”, not “three-man band night”
Or I’d have gone up the road
Oh honey you’re up next, if you play this right…

But I’m not banking on career
I aim for the back row, with good form
I find my seat off stage, it’s still warm
Nothing better, why don’t you let her sing a song or two

But I’m not waiting around
I break real well when handled rough, I know it
I think it’s best you keep your tough love where I can see it
Take that or leave it

But I’m not banking on career
I aim for the back row, with good form
I find my seat off stage, it’s still warm
Nothing better, why don’t you let her sing a song or two

 
Bartered 

Eyes relax to light
Did someone send for me?
Do I know you? Do I know you?

You seem awfully far
Away from me
Disappointment floods the fortune

Chorus:
Willing fate for that, it can not be
Instead of what you wanted, you got me

Molding flesh like clay
Doesn’t work that way
How bout if I carry on the name

Willing fate for that, it can not be
Instead of what you wanted, you got me

I wanna be a deeper sea, not this raining mess
I wanna be of certainty, and not a wild guess
Just fine at best

 
Bulldog

Put down your baggage where you stand
Don’t lug it all in
Before you start I have a mark to make

You come out swingin’
And flexing your muscle and your memory of me
Falling short, falling through, too easily

Go on and be the thing I thought you were
Go on and make the mess I thought you might
Clear my head and prove the things I’ve conjured
I’m never wrong and all along it’s been in plain sight

You know I adore you
Disregard my hands wrapped around your neck
I hope by now you know I’d never squeeze

You come out seethin’
Offensive and downright aggravating
And I give it back with the bulldog bark you hate

Go on and be the thing I thought you were
Go on and make the mess I thought you might
Clear my head and prove the things I’ve conjured
I’m never wrong and all along it’s been in plain sight

Go on and be the thing I thought you were
Go on and make the mess I thought you might
Clear my head and prove the things I’ve conjured
I’m never wrong and all along it’s been in plain sight
I’m never wrong and all along it’s been in plain sight
Could I be wrong when all along it’s been in plain sight

 
Careless

scratch until it bleeds
tease until it feeds on you
no one meets your needs like I do
but it’s empty
depleting me
and I fill it with the will to please you

but I can’t be careless
I can’t be careless
I can’t be careless
with myself
anymore
anymore

no one thought she’d leave
how can one believe it all
let her be to grieve a great fall
from the sky to the floor
his bed to the door
and I wonder if he knows
I adored him

but I can’t be careless
I can’t be careless
I can’t be careless
with myself
anymore
anymore

I can’t be careless
I can’t be careless
I can’t be careless
with myself
anymore
anymore…

 
Character

Always waiting for a word left unsaid.
Always looking for a roadblock ahead.
But don’t watch the road – just keep your eyes fixed on me.

I’m an army and for you I’ll extend
Both my arms, an attempt to mend
What’s broken and failing to be cured.

In time I’ll erase your hurt.
You’re a fighter and you always were.
May your body be strong drawn from strength of character.

When we were babies, we had no idea.
And all the ‘maybes’ of our teenage years
All but took us out before we even felt in.

In time I’ll erase your hurt.
You’re a fighter and you always were.
May your body be strong drawn from strength of character.

If who you are matters at all
When this goes down, if it goes down at all
Then you by far, you have raised the bar.

In time I’ll erase your hurt.
You’re a fighter and you always were.
May your body be strong
May your body be strong
May your body be strong drawn from strength of character

Strength of character
God knows you’re a fighter and you always were
How this will end, I can’t be sure
But I know your strength of character

Always waiting for a word left unsaid.
Always looking for a roadblock ahead.
But don’t watch the road – just keep your eyes fixed on me.

 
Clean and Discreetly

use the key i gave you as if your own
a brand new place for us to merge in
i promise soon you’ll look like me from proximity
a taller balder older version

you can shower first and i’ll wait my turn
i’ll bear the shock of water that’s cold
you can rest assured that i’ll invade your space
invited until otherwise told

and be as it is and how imperfect i am
in light of open wounds that still burn
for all that you accept i’ve wept not knowing it’s earned
and patiently you waited for me to learn

at my level i wonder do you have tendencies
to steal back your socks from off my feet
hope you know that i’ll always put them back
and replenish your pile with my own
clean and discreetly

and be as it is and how imperfect i am
in light of open wounds that still burn
for all that you accept i’ve wept not knowing it’s earned
and patiently you waited for me to learn

rent’s gone up and so have the stakes
bending’s not enough so now we’re folding
i thought it’d be harder my mistake
i never could forget whose heart i’m holding
i never could forget whose heart i’m holding

and be as it is and how imperfect i am
in light of open wounds that still burn
for all that you accept i’ve wept not knowing it’s earned
and patiently you waited for me to learn

be as it is how imperfect
in light of open wounds that burn
for all that you accept i’ve wept not knowing it’s earned
and patiently you waited for me
and honestly you waited for me
and selflessly you waited for me to learn

 
Comfort Zone

Seven degrees below my comfort zone
A giant stride passed a line you crossed
These walls endure the fall whether friend or foe
And I the consequence, the harm, the cost

Kindly return to me what you take…

Cause my body doesn’t lie to me
Oh you do it so well
Oddly enough these warnings I have learned to head
Tell me run like hell

Believe me when I say I’d have had it your way
If it weren’t for feeling like the least I could do
When you’re bent out of shape, keeping at bay
Your edges are sharper than you think and I bruise

Kindly return to me what you take…

Cause my body doesn’t lie to me
Oh you do it so well
Oddly enough these warnings I have learned to head
Tell me run like hell

Of all the ways to harbour shame, I’m familiar
Of all the ways to place the blame, I knew you were

Of all the ways to harbour shame, I’m familiar
Of all the ways to place the blame, I knew you were

Of all the ways, the ways, I’m familiar
Of all the ways, the ways, I knew you were

Cause my body doesn’t lie to me
Oh you do it so well
Oddly enough these warnings I have learned to head
Tell me run like hell

 
Confession

oh God i’ve got a confession to make
see somewhere beneath falling debris i made a huge mistake
he said he’d always fight so I closed my eyes tight and threw the words like knives
he said he’d always fight but he meant he’d fight for me

it never seemed to ever get that bad to me
then i looked at him, i looked at him and i knew
when did i miss the part on living a lie
cause i know right now he saw right through, and i’m sorry

so far i’m 0 for 9000 or more
these damn mental wars, they never get won
and i’m screwed of a strategy
he said he’d go to hell so i closed his suitcase and stuck it in the door
he said he’d go to hell if i stayed hell-bent to see it through

it never seemed to ever get that bad to me
then i looked at him, i looked at him and i knew
when did i miss the part on living a lie
cause i know right now he saw right through, and i’m sorry

he said i know you’re wrong
but we both know that i’m not the one to change your mind
he said i know you’re wrong
so hit me with it hard and i’ll endure

it never seemed to ever get that bad
then i looked at him, i looked at him and i knew
when did i miss the part on living a lie
cause i know right now that he saw right through

 
Cut Off

when construction outside won’t let me break up the day with a nap of four hours
bidding begins with a phone call and you send flowers

i know better like cats know windows and when i hit the glass they hit the deck
i know awareness of time won’t change it and still i check

cut off and still able and that’s the worst part
all movements shut off waiting wasteful moments to restart

when you informed me i think of how far removed i was
from noticing what happens when you leave
as if my right arm’s been taken clean off of me
and i’m the empty sleeve

cut off and still able and that’s the worst part
all movements shut off waiting wasteful moments to restart

running the risk of shifting the focus from the time of your life and my needing some
running the risk of shifting the focus from the time of your life and my needing some
of your time
distorted and delayed is fine
whatever time you’ve got i’ll take
it’s my turn to wait

i do best inside well worn sweaters intently drawn to tether on repeat
cause when she sings the word “aching” i believe that she aches
but i could compete

cut off and still able and that’s the worst part
all movements shut off waiting wasteful moments to restart
cut off and still able

 
Diggin’ In

thank God that hope is not as fleeting
as guilty thoughts of how we’re diggin’ in
thank God that hope is not as fleeting
as guilty thoughts of how we’re diggin’ in

bubble i’m living in – my home, my home
i know nothing of need, i know nothing of war
trouble is coming and it feels so long
this pebble in our glass slipper

and still i am willing to try
and still i am willing to try
and still
and still

thank God that hope is not as fleeting
as guilty thoughts of how we’re diggin’ in
thank God that hope is not as fleeting
as guilty thoughts of how we’re diggin’ in

we’re playing make believe – don’t cry, don’t cry
get while the getting’s good, greed is our lifestyle
never sastisfied
this comfort is our joy in the ride

and still i am willing to try
and still i am willing to try
and still
and still

thank God that hope is not as fleeting
as guilty thoughts of how we’re diggin’ in
thank God that hope is not as fleeting
as guilty thoughts of how we’re diggin’ in

bubble i’m living in, bubble i’m living in
not alone
bubble i’m living in, bubble i’m living in
not alone

thank God that hope is not as fleeting
as guilty thoughts of how we’re diggin’ in
thank God that hope is not as fleeting
as guilty thoughts of how we’re diggin’ in

 
Get Out Alive

Something inside me says “Come out with it… go on.
Of all your trapped down cares, release this one.”

In the strangest way…buried alive.
In the strangest way…buried alive.

Something inside my chest says “Feel this, damn you.
I’m not going anywhere but deeper in you.”

In the strangest way…buried alive.
In the strangest way…buried alive.

Alive.
Get out alive.
Get out alive.
Alive.
In the strangest way.

I see clearly how I nearly stayed under.
I’ve lost sight of my inner light no longer.

I see clearly how I nearly stayed under.
I’ve lost sight of my inner light no longer.

Get out alive.
Get out alive.
Get out alive.
Alive.

In the strangest way…

 
Getting Warmer

Forcing it to happen.
Begging it to come
Into my existence like a day begs to be done.
I can always feel the tension
When you’re holding something back.
A body barely breathing
All the pressure of a heart attack

You’re getting warmer
And I’m losing heat…
But I don’t need it anymore.

Chorus:
Waving my hands around
Trying to make noise.
Fanning the fire down
Making a choice.
Is that how you see me?
Is that how you see me
if you see me at all.

Yearning your approval
and even more your pride.
Feeling your opinion of me
Somehow will decide.
My worth in all this madness
if someone else confirms
The good or right in everything
My life on someone else’s terms.

You’re getting warmer
And I’m losing heat…
But I don’t need it anymore.

Chorus:
Waving my hands around
Trying to make noise.
Fanning the fire down
Making a choice.
Is that how you see me?
Is that how you see me
if you see me…

Twisted dance and one more chance
And all the holes to fill.
The many clear distractions, poor attractions
Drawn to a weakened will.
Until… I just don’t need it anymore.

Chorus:
Waving my hands around
Trying to make noise.
Fanning the fire down
Making a choice.
Is that how you see me?
Is that how you see me?
Is that how you see me?
Oh….

I don’t need it anymore…

 
Good Reason

don’t go sending pity flowers i’m not dead i never was
human living hurt never let me forget that
i swear i saw him little demon fate wrecking hell on my path
oh but your will demands attention to your hands
a far more tempting concern

in the hands of another must be my salvation
not in my own how sure how sure was i
bear with me lover and i’ll promise you this
i’ll be for you what you have been for me

I was unafraid all through the dragons I slayed when I was clawing for air
and brave was I though through my eyes at the time I’d have disagreed
I was once prepared to leave this life courageous
Oh but I choose to stay and stare at you all day and be a happiness pie

in the hands of another must be my salvation
not in my own how sure how sure was i
bear with me lover and i’ll promise you this
i’ll be for you what you have been for me

with all the harsh and hopeless beginnings
peace found me when i found you

in the hands of another must be my salvation
not in my own how sure how sure was i
bear with me lover and i’ll promise you this
i’ll be for you what you have been for me
what you have been for me
my good reason to save myself

 
Hall Light

Today is the day I move the couch back
From pressed up against the front door
Apparently, two or three of these a day
Will steer my ship back to shore

Build it up, leading up to the moment I let someone through.

And he hits his head on my low hanging hall light.
The light I hang low for my own reaching, cause it
Guards my fortress long after invasion.
I’m prey to persuasion when he’s crouched in my hall light.

I’ll say this before he walks in and out
Then in again wasting my time
I cannot take one more fake song and dance
That knocks me down the mountain I’ve climbed

And he hits his head on my low hanging hall light.
The light I hang low for my own reaching, cause it
Guards my fortress long after invasion.
I’m prey to persuasion when he’s crouched in my hall light.

Letting me down has been a group effort
And I know that he’s capable too.
Can someone please shock me with more than I’d hope for.
God knows my demands are few.

Build it up, leading up to the moment I love someone new.

And he hits his head on my low hanging hall light.
The light I hang low for my own reaching, cause it
Guards my fortress long after invasion.
I’m prey to persuasion when he’s crouched in my hall light.

 
Hazard Markings

The night is cold and mighty winds are
tearing up the sky.
My hand finds your hand like a secret
Finds a place to hide.

But there are hazard markings on me.
The lightly freckled kind
Saying don’t take one more step
Save yourself, or lose your mind

Chorus:
I thought I told you timing was a tyrant I obey.
Stay away.

Safe but lonely, life impatient
Waiting for a move
I’m like a sinking rock in the ocean
Better me than you

Chorus:
I thought I told you timing was a tyrant I obey.
Stay away.
Stay away.

Your lips, they move, but they’re not talking.
They dance around in this game.
Try for me. Try for me. Try to see,
Then leave the way you came.

The night is cold and mighty winds
Tearing up the sky…

I thought I told you timing was a tyrant I obey.
I’m not prepared for prying eyes, despite their softened gaze.
Stay away.

The night is cold and mighty winds
Tearing up the sky…

 
Head On

the further back i trace for footprints
trespassing in safe guarded space
i find overlap of not one set but more
the coward’s map who’s sadly on course

sealed in an airtight cage where nothing ever changes
or it phases in and out
a better deal may be open for negotiations but let’s face it
once the lineup’s made we know what this is about

scarred by human labels
and so cautiously drifting
the wall’s been hit head on
my voice can take the screaming
but i feel better heard standing
facing this head on

before the steady aim became a skill
backwards thinking engrained
cause i find food for thought in poison fields far reaching
bare handed fought pulling roots long leaching the ground

revealed in a hate filled rage in no way isolated
a clear indication of the battles some fight
and by battles i mean of the fatal kind
as well as very much alive with wounds better hidden

scarred by human labels
and so cautiously drifting
the wall’s been hit head on
my voice can take the screaming
but i feel better heard standing
facing this head on

my voice can take the screaming
but i feel better heard standing
facing needless fear-filled hate
in all its horror
all its horror
and we will be heard
and we will be heard
and we will be heard
facing this head on

 
Leave it all behind

Three bright lights all treeline high
I’m nearly home
Tires ride the beaten miles
down the road

A picture I never thought would change
A memory my mind often replayed
A way of being I thought everyone obeyed

There are harder things to grieve
Let me hold you before leave
And we’ll cry it out and feel it one last time
Then leave it all behind

The window frames a familiar face
In the dining room
The smell of happy and a trace of
Warm perfume

A picture I never thought would change
A memory my mind often replayed
A way of being I thought everyone obeyed

There are harder things to grieve
Let me hold you before leave
And we’ll cry it out and feel it one last time
Then leave it all behind

Three bright lights all treeline high
I’m nearly home

 
Make It So

No one can tell, when thick skins harden to shells, the damage inside.
I picture you, floating freely, finding currents to ride.

Make it so. Love yourself like you loved me. with compassion, with a gentle hand.
Make it so.
Make it so. Build your home on rocks and glass, but be humble to the changing sand.
Make it so. Feel your way through layered pain and then maybe you will understand.

I caught a glimpse of who you were at the time, a flash of brightened light.
Shift as you will, from ever moving to still, from on the ground to… in flight.

Make it so. Build your home on rocks and glass, but be humble to the changing sand.
Make it so. Feel your way through layered pain and come find me there, combing the ground….for you…make it so.

Be gone, be gone. Be gone, be gone, ghost shadow…what was.

 
My Guest

in my weakness,
it didn’t matter who you were
I would have asked to
keep you
of this I am
of this I am
of this I am
sure

slow addiction
I feel an ache begin to yearn
I would have asked to
take you
of this I am
of this I am
of this I am sure

Chorus
but you forget my skin hunger
as you graze a hand across my chest
and you forget that I’m no longer
holding out, so be my guest
be my guest

mild obsession
you’ve had your fill now
it’s my turn
I would have asked to
taste you
of this I am
this I am
this I am sure

Chorus
but you forget my skin hunger
as you graze a hand across my chest
and you forget that I’m no longer
holding out, so be my guest
be my guest

be my guest
I know hell
I know helpless
be my guest

 
Play

stuck to the skin on my shirtless back
it’s growing thick i find
and like it’s nothing you give and then take away
but i give up impressing your kind

come down and play babe, despite your concern
putting it out there won’t mean you’ll be heard
fear will find you, of that i am sure
but here’s what i say, come down and play anyway

scrape down the inside and let it flow
sing to me, sing to me
says the man in the corner i don’t know
if he’s prepared for me

come down and play babe, despite your concern
putting it out there won’t mean you’ll be heard
fear will find you, of that i am sure
but here’s what i say, come down and play anyway

hear me loud and clear…

i know you better than you think i do
i’m waiting for your move
and i’m not peaking through my fingers like you
i don’t have to – i don’t lose

come down and play babe, despite your concern
putting it out there won’t mean you’ll be heard
fear will find you, of that i am sure
but here’s what i say, come down and play anyway

 
Shoelace and Velcro

It’s carefully designed
All the things he’ll do to catch your eye
And I don’t know how
None of them ever show
It’s never or now – plant the thought and
Watch it grow

Bridge
To him you’re a shoelace and he’s Velcro
You’re tied to moving up and he’s on hold
As stubborn and hard as it is to let go,
It’s as good as gone…

Chorus
You don’t know he’s with you
Cause you cannot feel the strings
Crossing neatly through your fingers
To which he lovingly clings
Attention that he pays you
Goes unseen but not to waste
Just to memorizing lines and curves and
Colours of your face
Just to memorizing lines and curves and
Colours of your face

But the day you lost your shoe
Opened up a window that he crawled through
To call out your name – but the word got
Caught like a feather in glue
Cause we all have our place – and the lies
That we buy into

Bridge
To him you’re a shoelace and he’s Velcro
You’re tied to moving up and he’s on hold
As stubborn and hard as it is to let go,
It’s as good as gone…

Chorus
You don’t know he’s with you
Cause you cannot feel the strings
Crossing neatly through your fingers
To which he lovingly clings
Attention that he pays you
Goes unseen but not to waste
Just to memorizing lines and curves and
Colours of your face

Just to memorizing lines and curves and colours…

Every once in a while he’ll put down the lens
The lens he sees you through, and won’t back down
You don’t know that he’s with you
You can’t feel the strings
Crossing neatly through your fingers
And he clings, clings, clings,
And you’ll never know, And you’ll never know,
And you’ll never know.
And you’ll never know, And you’ll never know,
And you’ll never know.

You’ll never know

It’s carefully designed…

Studying

Today’s a big day
Important things to do
You’d be amazed at how focused I can be
I’ve got my list and my pen, I’ll tell you when
I’ve made it through and have a moment free

You can’t command my attention
You won’t affect my retention of a knowledge base
Are you convinced I can function like a cold machine
It’s clearly not the case

The truth is I think about you
I’ve no control – my mind goes where it will
It’s you I think about and I lost control
When I handed it off to the thought
That you’re coming home

When I’m around you my senses aren’t my own
Are you aware of how distracting you can be
I’ve read the title three times - I’ll be surprised
If I can turn the page before you leave

Ok you’ve got my attention
So much for needless retention of a knowledge base
Are you convinced I can function like a cold machine
It’s clearly not the case

The truth is I think about you
I’ve no control – my mind goes where it will
It’s you I think about and I lost control
When I handed it off to the thought
That you’re coming home

The truth is I think about you,
I think about you, I do
The truth is I think about you,
I think about you, I do

I can’t get my work done cause of you
I won’t meet the deadline
I can’t study a thing except for you
When are you home tonight

 
Test Of Vanity

it’s nowhere near the greatest shame to me to me
and i’ll find ways to keep warm in the winter
but shame shame at all i don’t prefer

just a waste of ten minutes daily
yes the art of style was never mine
now just wean me off slowly
maybe gone feels like short and fake feels real with time
cause short oh i know i like

test of vanity
test of vanity
i’m holding up but we’ll see

suck it up babe you’re reaching
it’s out of your hands in mocking piles
it’s wound around the teeth on unforgiving combs
invading the holes in all the clothes you own
and what’s more bothersome than a lot
is where it should be and it’s not
where it should be and why it’s not
anymore
oh the stress on my wit and charm
picking up the slack to fill gaps up
let’s address my burdensome arm on yours
and how long before you i’d be fed up
long before you i would give on me

test of vanity
test of vanity
i’m holding up but we’ll see
and it’s sad and it’s funny

suck it up babe you’re reaching
it’s out of your hands in mocking piles
it’s wound around the teeth on unforgiving combs
invading the holes in all the clothes you own
and what’s more bothersome than a lot
where it should be and it’s not
where it should be and why it’s not
anymore

test of vanity

it’s nowhere near the greatest shame to me to me

 

The Breakless Heart (video lyrics) ©2013 Sheena Grobb

I wander in – I must be waking,
I’ve seen this place before
Pushing through a deep impression
That’s filled me to the core

Something’s calling to be released
And now I know I’m not afraid
Shattering – but trusting completely
The heart that never breaks

So I open my heart
A thousand ways to break apart
Still I open my heart
Again, again, again

There was a path I thought I would not follow
That could not be for me
There was a shadow hovering,
A mirror back at me

All my questions, they need no answer
I know them to be true
I see expanding, I see unraveling
A peace we’re soaring through

So I open my heart
A million ways to fall apart
Still I open my heart
Again, again, again
Again, again, again
To the Breakless Heart
We found the Breakless Heart
 
The lifting veil of all illusion
Where once there had been pain
There might exist an endless silence
And yet I know the way

Something’s calling to be released
And now I know I’m not afraid
Shattering – but trusting completely  
The heart that never breaks
The heart that never breaks

And so I open my heart
A million ways to fall apart
Still I open my heart
Again, again, again
Again, again, again
Again, again, again
 
We found the Breakless Heart

When the dark and the light are familiar
When the dark and light leave
When the dark and the light are familiar
When the dark and light leave

In the dance of the light and the darkness
In the dance we're all set free

In the dance of the light and the darkness
In the dance we're all set free

We’re the pieces of the broken
And we all fit perfectly
We’re the pieces of the broken
And we all fit perfectly

Inside the Breakless Heart

Heart heart heart
Heart heart heart

 
Whirlwind

Caught up in the weight of a whirlwind
Watching it from inside your eyelid
I opened up the trapdoor and in you slid
Forget what you’ve got
It won’t do a lot
Caught up in the weight of a whirlwind

Caught up in it
Caught up in it my friend

Caught up in a moment that you regret
Lookin’ for a second chance you won’t get
Scared of moving forward, your fate is set
Forget how sure you thought that you were
Caught up in a time you regret

Chorus

Caught up in the noise of your mind game
Fed up with the cleaver thing it became
Knowing how to peg you with misplaced shame
Forget what you said, it’s all in your head
Caught up in the noise of your mind game








 

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